you say i have a sad look or whatever, truth is i dont know how i feel.
i feel bad, or made to feel bad when you treat me like a fat lazy bum who wants to just goto work and come home and lay around till its time to do it again. im wore out, physically and psychologically, and i dont wanna do anything but see my baby and eat(lol)
i feel 9 times outta 10 i do something when you want to, with the exception of bein in a bar(im over bein in a bar), then id say 1 outta 5 times. even when i work at the bar, thats not for me as much as it is for you, so you can have money. i wanna fix our problems. me, on my own, i wanna be able to provide for my man, i wish you could lay around and not have to work, youre my everything, except when you say things that make me feel fat, unattractive, and when you look at other guys, youve got a good lookin man who wants to worship your body and you forever. thats a sucky feelin to feel that way for you and you tell me youve often wondered what else is out there.
you wanna go out,GO, you wanna look, LOOK, you wanna flirt, FLIRT, then come home and do ME, you want more freedom? then BE SINGLE, im holdin you back from NOTHING, please dont make me feel like i am.
i know you only push me to help me follow my dreams, but pusshin only makes me wanna close down and not have dreams. one thing i thought would be a problem when we met was our EQUAL stubborness, lol.
i will follow my dreams, and i AM workin towards it, one thing im worried about with school is now i know the demands and i worry about us, silly i know, but know also that i am still gonna do it, but dont mean i cant worry.
jason you are the world to me, everything i ahve ever needed, wanted, and as ive told you before i feel like i dreamed you up years ago.
i dont always feel good enough for you, and that confuses me since i am the same man you fell for.
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